Ecstatic

I'm loving my single life. Nuff said. =)


*Yang patah tumbuh,
Yang hilang berganti.

(pardon me for the skema-ness.haha)

My groovy Tok Mak, Happy 86th

Happy 86 Birthday dearest Tok Mak, the most superb granny ever. Alhamdulillah, semoga panjang umur dan dimurahkan rezeki by Him, always and always.I love you granny =)

And not to forget Wanie the cousin! Happy 22nd darling! Mwah mwah.

There's Something About Yasmin Ahmad

I was listening to Light Years Away by Mozella, and I didn't feel anything at all. No emotions,nothing. I could even sing clearly when listening it in the MP3 while driving back home from Kota Damansara. How that song made me weak in the knees a few months back, and now, NO MORE. :)

Wow. I'm improving. A LOT. Girlpower to me.hell jeahhh!

And oh.Can't wait for BBQ at Pak Long's house tomorrow,along with the reception and Tok Mak's celebration.Just came back from watching Muallaf with Eya just now, not bad, but we got in late,cause the movie was at 10.15pm and we bought the tix late and went in only at 10.50. The ending was hanging a bit, but overall, not that bad. But I prefer Sepet and Mukhsin, especially. But my sister said Talentime was by far the best that arwah Yasmin has ever directed. And I HAVEN'T watched it yet. =( This Muallaf movie is obviously, based on religion and thus we know it is very subjective kan. So, people will have different opinions and views lah.

But on the other hand, hey, it's Yasmin Ahmad we're talking about. One of the very FEW fantastic directors to date. Even though she's no longer around aspiring us with her unique movies, but the ones that she has directed will always be inspired by many people, especially the Malaysians. A well-respected director, I shall say.

Merry Merry

Merry Christmas to all the Christians!
New Year coming REAL soon and I can't wait for new things to come my way! ;)
My year,perhaps? Insyallah.

Anyways, there's this guy who asked for my number. And he's quite cute.Hahaha.Well, why not right?Since I'm mingling for sure.haha. Follow your heart,missy.Whatever rocks my boat eh? ;)

And today's my last day of attachment.Thank God. Quite a good experience, but overall, what dayya expect?Attachment, nothing much actually. And to top it all off I got no allowance! Sheeeeeesh. Oh well. 1 month ja, so I don't really mind (mind sikit la.haha!) I hope these last few days will be great for me. =]

xoxo ;)

Whoah

I'm feeling rather a lil bit on the cheeky side tonight. ;p heheheh.

Oh Well

I kinda miss this person who used to say this particular sentence to me that somehow will always make me feel okay.

"The world's cruel.But that doesn't mean all the people are."

You're indeed very wise I could say.

And yeah, you're always gonna be around for me.I know that.

Big Toys

My top picks for rides (currently) :

Mazda 6


Nissan Fairlady 350Z


BMW M6 Coupe


Porsche Cayenne S Turbo


Audi R8


Ford Shelby-favourite muscle car



Super sexay.Maserati baby!

R.I.P. Ramen Girl

Rest In Peace Brittany Murphy. You were such a doll. =(

LOS ANGELES - Brittany Murphy was ill with flulike symptoms in the days before her death and prescription medications were taken from her home, the Los Angeles coroner's office said Monday.

The 32-year-old star of films such as "Clueless" and "8 Mile" died Sunday morning after collapsing at her Hollywood Hills home. Paramedics tried to revive her, but she was pronounced dead at Cedars-Sinai Medical Center.

Assistant Chief Coroner Ed Winter said they will conduct an autopsy Monday to try to determine what killed the actress, and said her death appeared to be from natural causes. He said the illness, reported to officials by her family, could have contributed to her death, but it will be weeks before a final determination is made.

Toxicology tests will be performed, and officials will contact her personal physician to get a better sense of Murphy's medical history, Winter said.

Neighbor Clare Staples said she saw firefighters working to resuscitate the actress Sunday morning. She said Murphy was on a stretcher.

Murphy's husband, wearing pajama bottoms and no shoes, appeared "dazed" as firefighters tried to save her, Staples said. "It's just tragic," she added.

Funeral arrangements have not been announced.

Press Play

What doesn't kill you makes you stronger.

Show em what you got 2010 ;) bring it onnnn!

That's that.

Had a bbq re-union thingy yesterday and it was kinda good seeing some peeps I haven't met for quite a while.Hung out with Boogsy and had a few talks with him and barulah finally Chinky tells the story. It's about time ;p And yeah you should definitely be called "Chinky" for the 2nd story you were telling me about! haha ;) And oh, it was really really good to see my long-time ttdi girlfriend, Najah at the bbq after eons of not seeing her! I'm gonna go to Melbourne soon okay sayang?hehe. And you better show me some good clubs there! (plus the hotties la for sure.lol)


Anyways twas good letting it out to Hobbs@Feeya of some stuff that's been bothering me lately.Thanks for that one shortypie :).And thank YOU,feeya and dello for the fun night out, even tho there were just 3 of us, despite the little prob we had before going.haha. More to come yeah?hehe.

As for tonight, I'm just gonna sit back and relax at home, read a good book and go buy a burger with Eya I guess. No mood to go out.

And oh NADIA SHAFLEENA, hope you're doing okay over there and please get me something from Bang on The Door please! hahaha. Or H&M! (hahaha demanding pulak)

Asta La Vista sweethearts ;)

Kalau kau dah move on, SO CAN I.

Jangan nak perasan I nak check on you lah wei.
You think I got no other important things to do?
And the things that you said in the texts?
Honestly? Rude like fuck la kan. Sial.
And thank goodness la kan you're not in my FB's list of friends.
SANGAT-SANGAT thank goodness. Hidup in your own world la please.
Don't think a woman doesn't have her worth la stupido.


And for the record?
I think it'll take a while for you to show me the 'best' relationship you've ever had.


By the way, Boogsy, had a good talk with you just now. Let's meet up soon okay? :)

And Adzrul, safe journey to Melbourne, be good yah? hehe.

Baiduri

nak jumpa feeya,sha and dell! =/ cherry jauh sangat! rinduuuuu.

BULL to the CRAP

On the other hand, men are not the same as women.

Fuck guys. The heartbreaker ones.
Don't think that once you've broken a woman's heart,she can't get back up and be much BETTER in time.

Guys like these just don't have a friggin clue what's in store for them. Karma hits you peeps real hard baby. Fo sho,fo sho. =)

"Diamonds never leave you, men DO!" =D

p/s : not ALL guys are like that :)

*ter-emo a bit on this post, based on some freakin god damn annoying shitto REASONS.
xx

Mars and Venus

Memang lah perempuan and lelaki sama. Tapi nowadays perempuan selalu get hurt. Which is one of the reasons why kita nak uphold justice for women. It's undeniable that we need men like men need women. But at the end of the day, we suffer from all the heartaches, most of it. So, obviously there are gonna be never-ending debates on this one kan. So, as long as we argue it in a healthy way and look at it on a different level, then it wouldn't be a problem.

Men,men,men. aiyoyoyo.

Women pun can be aiyoyoyo jugak. Alah sama ajalah conclusionnya.

Truth Be Told

*"Nobody needs to prove to anybody what they're worthy of, just the person that they look at in the mirror. That's the only person you need to answer to."


*A day will come when you will be stirred by unexpected events. A part of you will die and you will begin to search for the elixir that will bring this part of you back to life. You will seek the elixir in friends, lovers, enemies, books, religions, foreign countries, hero's, songs, rituals and jobs, but no matter where you look the treasure will evade you. All will seem lost and you will lose all hope that this magic potion even exists.

Your radiance will transform the abyss into the elusive elixir of life and for the first time you will realize that all the while it is your own light that you've been searching for.


*"The truth is that our finest moments are most likely to occur when we are feeling deeply uncomfortable, unhappy, or unfulfilled. For it is only in such moments, propelled by our discomfort, that we are likely to step out of our ruts and start searching for different ways or truer answers."

Frontin'

I like it if a guy notices the littlest things about me.

Very sweet indeed. =)

And a guy who's such a gentleman yet at the same time can be a 'baddie'. haha. Don't get me wrong, good guys are interesting. But a guy who has that bad boy thingy goin on is more mysterious somehow to me. heheh. It intrigues meeee.

Alsoooo, a guy who's full of surprises. That somehow excites me.hahah ;)

This goes out to Nadia Shafleena

The moment I read your text this evening, I was smiling cause I know you miss me already! haha, cmon bitch don't deny that.Yeah, I do admit I kinda miss you la shortypie. =) No more late night calls (god that sounds so wrong,but what the heck hahaha) and gossips! You so have to update me once you're back!

Anyways,somehow I feel like showing you some gratitude, after all that you've done for me babe. Haha.Don't wanna make it sound too mushy, but yeah, somehow we've gotten closer in many ways and I'm glad that you're back on track =). Thanks for everything, be it the smallest littlest things, to all the never-ending dramas that we've gone through. You know 2009 ain't the year for me! (and maybe some parts of it weren't for you as well, if you know what I'm talking about :) ). Thank you for always having my back during one of the bitter moments of my life. Just couldn't thank you enough doll. Although obviously it's not entirely perfect, as everyone's imperfect, obviously. But, those things that you did made you who you are, and I appreciate it and don't ever ever change the great qualities that you possess okay? You're worth it, as a person. Remember that. You'll always have that pride and dignity in you that people can't steal away. Love you loads missy!

haha.I know you'd be smiling when you read this, at least it's cheering you up bitch! Let's rock 2010 partner-in-crime! haha.xoxo.

Barack Obama

I think Obama should be our Prime Minister in Malaysia.

His speeches,the visions and missions on what he has in store for the Americans are very promising and it makes people believe that what he says in all his profoundly amazing speeches will somehow make him deliver, no matter what the outcome is.

Sure, politics will always be politics. I mean, all are just dirty in their own ways in each country all over the world, but somehow, the way Obama does it makes it a whole lot different from other Prime Ministers and Presidents that I know of.

Well, people have their own perceptions and beliefs on politics.I myself,for instance, am not really into politics, but I like Obama and I think he is just unique in his own way.

crap. I don't even know why I'm blabbing on Obama.Maybe sebab my mom as usual,baru balik from kerja,terus pasang BBC. And pop! Keluar pasal background Obama before being a president. haha. craaaaaaaaaap. Anyways whatever it is I still like you Oba to the ma!

Current obsessions :)

Black and white photography
Nicole Richie and her family. Total cuteness. And plus, she's one of the most respected trendsetters to date!
The Kardashians. They're damn hilarious and interesting ;)
Gucci Flora perfume

Christian Louboutin's pony skin slingbacks
Love love loveeeee


Always, always an obsession, this one =)

goo goo dolls

no mood to blog at all for the past few days.
a lotta stuff been creepin in my messed up head.

anyways,

i just can't wait for 2009 to be over,
and to start a new chapter in 2010.

BRING it on baby.

!@#$%^&*

WHY?
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*I know some of the recent posts are a bit emo and cannot go, but I don't give a crap. Seems that everything's not how it's supposed to be.

fucking fuckiest

fuck fuck fuck fuck everything.

aiyoyo

Nak go Spain and Greece. i want i want i want! And Bora-bora Island after watching Couple's Retreat!

lalala

A few days back, I was telling my sister how much I regretted doing some of the things I thought was alright doing but NOT alright at the end. And she said "Cha,don't ever regret what you have done. You yourself have chosen it to be that way at first, so let it be. The more you regret, the more you feel inferior of yourself". Something like that. Somehow, it's quite true though. I mean. Sometimes when I do things, I do it subconsciously without realizing the outcome of it, or maybe without even thinking hard about it. But you know, everyone's not perfect, and when they tend to do something out of the norm and regret doing it later, who's to blame then?

But you know. We should not regret things. Just try hard not to. Cause regretting anything in your life makes you just wanna blurt out the I-should-have-beens or the If-onlys, or anything like it. Let it be what it's left. No looking back. And I need to constantly remind myself that whatever happens, however shallow things may be, I just need to tell myself that it's okay to have regrets and don't let it overshadow your thoughts and feelings on other things. Let it be. Right where it's supposed to be. hmmmm.

hormones

PMS PMS PMS.

Here we go again, emotions running thru like no one's friggin business.

Sorry. PMS is the time to be a "tiger" in disguise. hahaha.

EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.geramnya. at nothing actually. or maybe there is something, but I have no clue what lies beneath it?

crap crap crap.

PMS PMS PMS. =(

Something to make me feel okay.

"Tell your heart that the fear of suffering is worse than the suffering itself. And no heart has ever suffered when it goes in search of its dream."

Paulo Coelho, an amazing, amazing writer.

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"Your regrets aren't what you did, but what you didn't do. So I take every opportunity."

Cameron Diaz
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Love comes in many forms
Self -love is the best
It is better to want than need
But everyone needs
Find the need in yourself
And fill it with what you want
I wish; I grow
I challenge
I look for those who challenge my heart, my soul, my expansion
I am expanding and it is a beautiful thing
I always want, I always stay hungry
Never sacrifice yourself or your dreams to fulfill someone else's needs
I breathe, I am alive; I awaken the fire within me
Do not let your soul be deprived of its vision
Accept, awaken, enlighten
Challenge yourself
Do not look to others to challenge you
I see right through you

Meredith Banker

Omegosh

Fasting today.Energy is going down the drain around this time, as usual.Sigh. Results are out in like?2 days? GOD. Please, give me strength and let me get good results, insyallah. Hope my period's not coming anytime soon cause I wanna solat hajat and pray hard for this one. Seriously. Sigh.

Diey and Sha, times like these really make me miss you two so so muchhhh. Diey's flying off for a holiday to India (her kampung,btw.LOL ;P) and Sha's like, doing her attachment dekat hujung dunia? Which is like..Putrajaya? But I envy you laaa get to work in Palace of Justice.At least takda la bosan like mineeeeeeeeeeee. Bluergh.

I miss my bitches. ;/

Miss Miss

I miss hanging out with my Elli Suraya and my Syamil

Miss talking about anything under the sun with them. And gossiping, for sure.hehe

Hope we'll be hanging out soon.

Love both of you! <3 :)

I wanna think of something fun to do soon, so, yeah, wait for it! :)

Boooooom!

Mister Mysterious?

percayalah

Kuhanya ingin kau bahagia
Jalani yang kau pilih
Jangan risaukan aku
Percayalah kasih cinta tak harus memiliki
Walau kau dengannya
Walau kau coba lupakan aku
Tapi ku ‘kan selalu ada untukmu

Unconditional love

Just watched My Sister's Keeper with Mama and Eya seconds ago. It was heartbreaking and so touching. We cried buckets and the sobbing was non-stop. Sigh. It made me realize how precious it is to have that unconditional love and bond between a mother and a daughter. The way Kate's mother,Sarah Fitzgerald took care of Kate during her years of struggling with leukemia, and how Anna, the last child in the family, is the only hope in saving Kate's life. Anna filed a lawsuit against her own mother, arguing that she has her own rights to her own body and that there was no permission granted from Anna during the bone marrow surgery, in donating it to Kate. She certainly loves Kate as much as Sarah,the mother does. But based on my understanding, I guess Anna was confused by her own actions and not considering what the outcome would be.

This kind of movie really,really touches my heart as it reflects the family values and it makes us think hard on what we can do to preserve that certain kind of love and care towards one another. No matter how painful things can be around the house with the family, you just know deep inside your heart that they are the only ones who are constantly there whenever you need anything from them. And, to think that no one, and nothing can replace them from you.

It certainly uplifts my way of thinking on the importance of preserving the family values wherever we are and whoever we may come to be. No matter what we do,where we go, we know for the fact that family will be on the top list of our priorities in life.And for that, I am thankful enough to be able to live with a spectacular family of my own.

say what?

I seriously need changes. Emotionally and mentally.

A difference between Men & Women

I was typing randomly on the Google search titled "Why women show emotions clearly than men" and found this random blog talking about it.

"Men are not as emotionally articulate as women are. It's not out of spite;"

and...based on a research posted in the blog,it was said that...

Thanks to neuroscience,the amygdala, a small, almond-shaped region deep in the brain, plays a key role in both emotional reactions and emotional memories. And, wouldn't you know it, the female amygdala is far more efficient. That's why women can recall more emotional memories more quickly, and their memories are richer and more intense.

The amygdala may also play a role in women's greater tendency to engage in what scientists call ruminative thinking, the repetitive focus on negative feelings and events.When most women talk, both sides of their brains are activated; men use only their left hemispheres for speech. It's emerging details like this that are leading scientists to theorize that, yes indeed, women seem to have a greater built-in facility for talking about their feelings.


Talk about women and their emotions, it's DEFINITELY way more intense ;)

Good ol' friends

Twas good to be able to be silly and just be your own goofy self around friends who've known you waaaay back. They just know how and what you are like, inside out. Especially how you react towards new people, whether or not you're trying hard to impress people, or anything like it. The flaws, the good side of you, all those. Somehow they're the ones who can really judge you, and criticize you for all you care, and whether you like it or not. Although at times they can be really,really straightforward, but at the end of the day that will be the truth that will make you feel like "Ouch, now THAT is really deep". Haha. But hey, no matter how hard it is to accept something negative coming from your good friends, those remarks will make you a better person somehow. Making you aware and be rational on many perspectives in life. ;) And, they are like god sent when it comes to supporting you always having your back whenever there's a breakdown.

Anyways, went for a casual hangout @ Laundry, just chillin with a few close friends. It's been a while I haven't hung out like this.Quite a relaxing night,though. Aquib's friend, and also a boyfriend to a girl I know, was asking me about case of the ex and the "girl". Haha. I'm way past that and thank God I don't feel anything talking about him nowadays. Maybe the feelings are not there anymore.Well can't blame me for that though.=)

Anyways, Sunday is here already and that means MANIC MONDAY will come! Urghhh.Dreading to get back to work laaa. Can't imagine myself working another few more years though. Tougher, obviously. =/

Till we meet again miss bloggy! =D xx

Regretting something?

I regretted having done something though.

I shouldn't have, actually.

I guess I was confused, angry, and messed up.

And doing it for the sake of it without thinking of the consequences.

I wish I wouldn't have done what I have done.

Doesn't bring my any good. At all. Should I or should I not..?

Maybe. Soon. We'll see what happens.


*and lama-lamakan, this feeling jadi more and more menyampah each day. Cam fucker aja la.

Believe.

I believe that :

; Nothing in life is as EASY as it seems. People can talk BIG, but where's the ACTION?

; If you put your heart and your mind on something you really BELIEVE in, then rest assured, Insyallah things will go your way, no matter how complex it may be.

; Allah is EQUAL to every hamba that stands by Him and respects Him at all times.

; Life has so much offer to every human being. We gotta open up our horizons, dare to be challenged, live life just as it is, and never to expect anything in your life. Expect the unexpected.

; It is okay to feel vulnerable at times. That's how you live.

; Life without drama ain't life at all. Where's the spice in it?

; Every SINGLE thing happens for a REASON. A hidden reason that lies behind everything that's been happening in my life.

; People who are narrow-minded are such a turn-off. Seriously, you gotta be rational and logical on MANY things in life.=, messieurs.

; Fate is overrated. Believing that love happens COINCIDENTALLY is sexy and mysterious at the same time. =)

; Love is unexplainable,complicated,delicate and fragile yet at the same time BEAUTIFUL.

; I deserve to LOVE and be LOVED. I know someone out there deserves me and I deserve him.

; Music is profoundly VITAL in my life. It makes me happy,it lifts up my spirit, it helps me go through many emotional breakdowns.

and, I truly believe that

; Happiness does not last forever. But while it is still around, cherish it. Every second, every minute,every hour,everyday, as you please. It comes and it goes in your life, but when it is there, EMBRACE it.

I need to remind myself constantly to not neglect on the important matters in life. I need to start to re-construct my way of thinking on things, my perception on people, and life itself. REVAMP BABY REVAMP

Slow Down,Sugar

How time flies by so fast,and it's already 4th of December??

Whoa.

And HOW TIME SLOWS DOWN LIKE A SNAIL when it comes to my attachment!

zzzzzz.

xoxo

Light Grenades

breathe in, breathe out.

Hidden Treasure

i feel like going far far away on my own.somewhere quiet. serene. that has tranquility in it.
no one else but me. no one can judge me,no one can know what i really feel inside and out. no one is able to tell me this and that. nothing.

sure, there are times when i am alone and i feel the need of a company.
whenever i am alone on my own, sometimes i do feel the loneliness that creeps in.
but you know. at the end of the day, whatever you do,whatever you feel, wherever you
are, you are all alone by yourself,literally speaking. even if there are many people around you, somehow you tend to be in your own world and you wouldn't be bothered by what other people are doing, let alone thinking.


i'm in this phase whereby i say to myself, it's okay to be alone.it's okay to seek help within yourself and to not think that those around you will always be there for you. it's okay to pick up the pieces where you've left off and put it back on in your life and just go on with it. it's okay to criticize yourself when you know that you have the ability and the freedom to think or do anything you want with yourself. and it's totally okay to make mistakes in life as it is one of the essential ingredients in life that you gotta learn. HARD.


and one thing for sure, it's okay to reminisce, to feel the need to cry, to feel vulnerable and overwhelmed by what has happened, be it about my studies, my family, friends, love life, and, life itself. one gotta live each day like it is your last day, and to treat life like a book, to start each day with a new page, and when good or bad events happen in your life, you start and end every chapter with different meanings. and when you're at your last chapter of the book, the final words, Insyallah, will be a heartwarming ending, so that when you look back, although there are rough edges along the way, you'll know that you've done good and you can smile and say, "There. That's the ending I've always hoped and wished for, and it finally came to my senses how it's supposed to end." End it with a smile, and be proud for whatever small or big achievements you've made and will make throughout the story of your own life.

*You'll never know a good thing till it's gone.

* You gotta live like you're dying.

Life, oh life.

shucks

A girl I know told me that this one girl memang still gatal like before. Alaa. she went way back before with her perangai yang cannot go.pity you lah. anyways. Seriously, you should get a life.. I mean. "Girls" like YOU la especially.

Kesian betul lah.

=)

Jolly Jolly

Last friday was Hari Raya Aidiladha. Anyways Happy Belated Hari Raya!heheWent back to Pop's kampung, Rembau, n9 . And it has been quite a long time the whole
family of Papa's have gone back there,since many relatives have passed away and
everything. But it was good seeing the kampung well maintained again, thanks to Mak Mah and Maksu. Miss spending those silly moments as a kid,running around and mandi perigi naked (kecik2 takpala right hahaha) with the cousins. Good times.Plus it was the first time after a few years since Papa and his siblings gather up,after some family issues. The little cousins are not so little dah now, all have grown up and damn, I feel old man. =O haha. Well, 21 and life has just begun! heheh.

After Raya-ing in kampung, we went straight to Melaka for a short holiday, stayed at this okay-okay la hotel called Avillion Legacy.Somewhere in the city lah. Had quite a holiday in Melaka though =) the food was superb, the ever so famous ikan bakar at Umbai and the mouth-watering asam pedas!! Sluuurrrrpppp. Terbaik I tell you, both of em. Been craving for ikan bakar for nearly a year now and yeaayy it has been fulfilled. And nice one lah kan. I think I've gained how many kilos dah just over the weekend! So this week no rice (hopefully) haha. Late that night I sempat hung out with Milo, he brought me around the city, and lepak at the jetty for a while, nice area, and Melaka dah maju okay! So many new developments. Next day went to Jonker Street the whole day till malam, and bought a few stuff and I think I spent quite a lot la jugak there. But worth it la the price and all =)Anyways overall thank God ada lah jugak a little holiday just to get our minds off the hectic KL.

Work was again, boring. Typed and typed all the correspondence letters la apa lah, then had to sort out some documents as Mr.Mak asked for some assistance. At least, rather than menguap non-stop.hahaha.

It's nice that Naya is back. I mean, not that she went anywhere, but the fact that she's more active than before in socializing with her college mates, especially ME! haha. We go wayyyyyy back before in Jengka babe. And it's been like nearly 4 years man. Kudos! hehe. We've been hanging out quite a lot lately and I'm glad that she's able to be there the times when I needed her most. I mean, we practically story each other almost everyday. Kinda corny and crazy but, it's good. =) and I'm glad that she's around. Haha. about you blabbing away in your blog about how I'm gonna miss you when you're off to UK,well I DO ADMIT I'll miss you lah bitch but cmon, it goes the other way around too,no?hahaha.=p can't deny that.

Anyways, things have been quite good for me lately, generally, on life itself. Insyallah. I pray that a miracle will happen,someday somehow. ;) xx

Baby are you down down down

Haven't started my work yet today. Supposedly gotta meet up with Uncle Godrey with Pops around afternoon, but he's still in court, so I'm starting tomorrow instead. whooppdedoooo! hahaha! Buat penat aja siap-siap tengok2 tomorrow pulak. Good jugak.hehe.

Anyways. I don't know if it's like a "trend" now to get married at a young age, but it seems that more and more youngsters these days have gotten married so fast man. Hmmm. There are like, commitments and other marriage stuff you gotta take note,don't you think? But, at the end of the day, hey, if the two of em are ready and willing to commit that fast, then, nothing gets in the way, maybe? hmmmm.

xoxo

=S

Let bygones be bygones.

But the unforgettable sweet memories will remain forever.

Forever.

So and So

First and foremest,Amiaaaaaaaaa. Thanks a bunch for accompanying me to Changkat tonight. Sorry had to tag you along for a while as it's kinda not nice la kan to not go to Bgsy's thingy since he came to my birthday bbq. Love you very much, and thanks for the yummy pizza ;) and Qibby, sorry for troubling you to teman me back home!

Anyways,happy birthday again mister Farig! Hope you had a blast yah? Love love. :)

Sigh. Today's the last day of my sweet 1 week holiday and Manic Monday will come and so it begins with the attachment. Haihhh. Am havin mixed feelings about starting work, especially during this age and since I know zero about office work! Haha. Insyallah hopefully everything will be okay. Please let Uncle Godfrey be lenient to meeeee. And to have allowance as well.haha.please laaaa. am broke ass home at the moment. How sad is that. Dang.

Hmm. I don't know if she's reading this. But I miss my D.S very much. I have no clue why we are not communicating like we usually do, and God knows how much I miss you babe. I miss everything. We're not even fighting,and I'm still wondering why on earth you're being so silent. Look, if it's about the open house thingy,which was like a few months back, I am truly sorry la okay if you terasa me and the rest tak datang. I did tell you many times on why I wasn't able to come. But later on I found out that S dropped by after 5pm and lepak for a while and you didn't even acknowledge me on that. But I don't mind pun since I thought it's all gonna be okay. But up until today, those texts and calls were never replied by you. Babe, you know we go way back on this, and I don't want us to be like how we used to be before. Which was very childish of us. We've grown so much closer babe,much much closer before.and you know you're one of the very few yang I tell everything to. And now I kinda am losing one, and it makes me really sad. Seriously. I don't know what's been bothering you cause you never come to me and tell me exactly what is wrong, but I still love you as my ultimate bestie and I hope we'll be contacting soon.

I miss you and I love you, D.S. ;/

Fall Seven Times,Stand Up Eight ;)

Another usual routine of mine in posting up amazing quotes that I truly believe in ;)

-> Even if happiness forgets you a little bit, never completely forget about it.
-Jacques Prévert

-> A happy life consists not in the absence, but in the mastery of hardships.-Helen Keller

->You cannot live on hope alone. But without hope, life is not worth living.***
-Harvey Milk

->There is only one happiness in life, to love and be loved.*** George Sand

-> Not only is there a right to be happy, there is a duty to be happy. So much sadness exists in the world that we are all under obligation to contribute as much joy as lies within our powers. -John S. Bonnell

->Keep laughing. As long as you’re laughing you still have hope. -Moe Howard

->Fall seven times, stand up eight! Japanese Proverbs (this one's good!)

-> When you change the way you look at things, the things you look at change.- Wayne Dyer

-> I would rather be a superb meteor, every atom of me in magnificent glow, than a sleepy and permanent planet. The proper function of a man is to live, not to exist.-Jack London

->We are not held back by love we didn’t receive in the past, but by the love we’re not extending in the present.-Marianne Williamson

->Words of love are works of love.-William Alger =)

-> You don’t love a woman because she is beautiful, she is beautiful because you love her.-Author Unknown

Hmm?

Quite a day for me, based on certain events, that is. Haha.
Felt a bit weird at first, but oh well.
Let it flow, like what people usually say,ey?
Went for a nice family dinner in Solaris,Hartamas at this one
restaurant called Meatworks,opposite ColdStorage
and the food was delissshhh. ;) And I loved the simple decoration
with white walls and lotsa modern lights, elegant and nice!
Anyways, tomorrow's a new day baby! ;)
Gonna go have breakkie and gotta call up that mister Boogie first since he's so
susah to bangun,according to him la.haha ;o


And oh yeah. It was quite good to talk to him just now, since it's been a while
I haven't talked to him on the phone.And congrats to your brother for being a dad now! I pulak over-excited. And don't forget that Insyallah,if I ever get to see your nephew kan, I'll surely make him call u UncleTAM.hahaha ;) bestnya dah ada baby.But big responsibility la (ookayyy stop dreaming laaa obviously it will not happen anytime soon) hahaha. adios amigos xx =)

You Betcha

I've had enough of people asking me whether I'm totally okay by now, cause it has been like, what, half a year already? So what? So what if I did admit that those past few months was hell and a wreck to me? So what if I had gone through the shittiest moments ever in my life whereby the fact that the one I used to love left me? So what if I wasn't strong at times before and all I could do was to just tell people to shut their bloody mouths and stop asking me about all that? People think differently and act differently to many situations in life, be it the freakin sucky ones or the good ones. The fact that my life was all shitty back then, it did not mean that I could not pick myself up and and breathe again. Breathe for something new and something that I have not discovered yet before.

Well these few months have been quite a journey to me emotionally and mentally, for the better I guess. I've stopped thinking about all the unnecessary things I'm not supposed to think of, I let myself distracted by doing all kinda things that kept my mind busy and carefree. My mind is finally beginning to let itself wonder into many positive thoughts. I don't give a crap about what had happened, how it happened,why it happened, because I know for the fact that shit happens for a reason and f*** it if it's a cliche cause that's the real deal pun. No one knows me better than I do,obviously, so now I am clarifying it to myself and to others (the ones who care about me) that I have finally come out from a shell that I was locked it for quite a while, breaking down emotionally and constantly asking myself the "why" questions. Allah never fails to let all is Hamba be equal on all things in life, and Insyallah, He'll guide me through my own journey of life.

No one is yet to discover the true meaning of life. That's for sure. No one is able to know the ending of one's story of life.Never right? I don't believe in the word "fate" for now. But I believe that when an opportunity comes in loving someone coincidentally, like, it just happens right there and then, Insyallah, with Allah's will, it will turn out to be something spectacular,maybe. Insyallah. At the end of the day, He knows best. I am beginning to accept the fact that when someone is hurt by love, the only solution for it to be healed is to look forward and never look back on the flaws that you have done, and to constantly remind yourself that everything happens for a reason. And that He will always, ALWAYS listen to you if you remember Him, at all times.

I know for sure that there'll be a light in every dark tunnel, and I know for sure that I deserve to be LOVED,RESPECTED and HAPPY, most importantly.

Merci Beaucoup, for everything

I'm undeniably grateful to Him, for having the kind of family who would go through all the rough edges of my imperfectness and accepting me for just the way I am, since day one I was born as the last member in the family.

Papa. You've taught me so much on many, MANY, things in life that I have never even thought of. Ever. You encouraged me to be brave,to accept life as it is and to never ever brag or belittle on things, material-wise especially, and most of all,to never ever be disrespectful towards anyone, for that matter. He never fails to remind me, till today ,that, " Allah s.w.t will always, always help His hamba whenever His hamba ackowledges Him by being bersyukur to whatever things he or she has in life, and which you know life is never,ever easy. But along the way that's how you learn the true meaning of life. The hardships of it, the happiness of it, but above all, the real meaning of it." Each and every year, all of the special Hallmark cards we usually give to each of the member of the family, "You've grown into a beautiful, young lady, always remember to solat, for that is the strongest shield to protect yourself from everything, to always remember that nothing is easy in life....", and all other fatherly advice a daughter could never ever trade for anything else in this world. Papa has this kind of outstanding mentality whereby he regards life as so simple, by being truthful to Allah, and to just live life as it is, without complaining. He accepts whatever dugaan and hardships by just being patient.
No words can describe how much I love you Pops, how much you've done for the family, especially during the hard times. (God this post makes me emo screamo, seriously!)


Mama. I could never ask for anything else in this world. You are everything to me. Enough said. You complete me in and out. You know what's best for me.You carried me painfully for 9 whole months, having dealt with all the mood swings,the backaches, the unexplainable feeling of delivering me, for that matter. You went through all that in a blink of an eye. Being a mother of three, a devoted and strong wife to a wonderful and understanding husband, an-out-of-this-world kinda doctor you are, and most of all, just by being you, the kind of mother whom any daughter would look for in any way. In any way, Momsie. I'm somehow like you in many ways, cheeky, likes things pretty and cute and colorful, loves talking (non-stop), loves dressing up whenever there are any glamorous occasions to look forward to, and many things that I can see myself in her. As a person Mama, I'm speechless in thanking you. I'm speechless on how you can be as hard as a rock, dealing with all the pressures and all the dramas of life only a mother knows. The mother instinct, the love and care they give towards their children especially. Although it might sound such a cliche, but just by giving that, it's as though they have completed all of the criteria a mother could ever have. And their compassion towards many things in life, their family, for instance. And how Mama puts others before her, makes me feel overwhelmed and emotional at the same time. She'll always think of the smallest littlest things on the wants and needs of her children, no matter what the circumstances are. Momsie, just by being who you are, you complete me inside out and nothing else matters but you. You're the queen of everything.

Thank You, Ya Allah.

Hot Hot Heat

Fun fun day baby! Had an all-girls- day out with the favourite bunch of moi Kuantan babes,Naya, Ana & Fet. Went to Red Box to polish up our vocal skills and hell yeah baby! We rocked it like no other. haha =) I wouldn't have it any other way spending time just the four of us. Since it's been wayy too long tak hang-out like this. And it was quite a retreat for me especially, lashing out all the god knows quite a few emo songs I sang.haha.But it was good to let it all out=) Sang all kinda songs lah you name it, from r&b to dangdut okay! hahaha. The dangdut one was just for fun so what the heck lah. Thank you babies for the company and only God knows how much I sayang you peeps and glad that we are still close till this day =) More karaoke session yeah? Anywho. Met up with Fet's friend's friend, and God. He looked so much better than the first time I met him.

Bumped into the guy in Damansara Perdana just now and aiyoyo that charming look and the way he smiled was.. =D. Aish. He's sorta my type of guy. And that smile is to die for la. Anyways, Missy, knock knock la hello. Reality bites,please? Hehe. Well even if it's just a general statement, he is still quite a look-out for a guy. Plus the friendliness. Okay missy, again, please. Haha!Dang.Anywhooosssss, wonder what shall I be doing for tomorrow? Maybe I'm gonna hit the dvds or read up a really good novel. Quite a few that I've been neglecting to read. =O adios amigos baby!

Bittersweet

Many people view forgiveness as an offshoot of love -- a gift given freely to those who have hurt you.

Yeap yeap and yeap. :)

Calm and Collected

I seek peace and tranquility when looking at these pictures.

Yeah. I need that.

Whooopdedoooo

Exam's over and I'm ready to rumbleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee baby! ;)
Partay partay! ;)
I need more dresses and tops to go out la. But I'm kinda like broke ass home.
How?
Shucks! No mood ady. hahaha. dammit.

Random thought ;p - I love guys who take fantastic black and white photos ;)

How Ironic

I've learned one thing for sure:

To never ever predict that any guy who comes along in your life to be "the" one for you or that he's the "perfect" guy for you.

Nonsense. Absofrigginlutely.

Bleugh.

Studying makes me wanna puke right now.

Puke puke puke.GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.

Good To Know

It's good that Miya is being stronger than ever before. No matter how heartbroken you are towards your guy, doing crappy shit behind your back or just the good-for-nothing kinda guy, you just gotta be able to pick yourself up along the way and that's how the heart can be mended slowly. No matter what comes in your way Miya, you know you have me and Okky to be there for you whenever you need us,even if we're both busy with our own lives. But you know we've gotten so much closer than before, and that somehow both of our previous relationships both made us realize that we're so much better than we were before. Honestly, I am glad that I still am your bestie up till now, to be able to hear all these and you to be able to understand my thoughts and feelings. xoxo

Anyways, was talking to Syamil on the phone an hour ago. Twas fun to be entertained by his silly-ness.haha.But,thanks for the call though.Had a good laugh with you! Merepek non-stop as usual.:) And both of us were excited to talk about the exceptional 500 days of summer. And the scene in Ikea where both of em were pretending to be married and being all adorable. Seriously the movie is so not the typical of the i-love-you-till-the-end-of-time kinda movie. It reflects on how someone falls in love with the other so much, and how it's "supposedly" to be fated with each other,somewhat like that. And somehow along the way, she moved on and found someone else and there was this phrase that really made me think long and hard, "Love is not all about fate and the meant-to-bes, it's about coincidence." Like, it just happens right there and then. Yeah man. That's a whole different level to think of on the perception towards love ey. And I think it makes more sense, in many ways. :)

Anyways happy first day of working Okky Pradita Arsanti me girlfriend! Have fun being the freshie chef! hehe. xoxo

A Woman Wears Her Tears Like Jewelry

A few of the quotes that I find very empowering for all women out there:~

*A woman can say more in a sigh than a man can say in a sermon. ~Arnold Haultain

*Women are always beautiful. ~Ville Valo

*Women are never stronger than when they arm themselves with their weakness. ~Marie de Vichy-Chamrond, Marquise du Deffand,

*A woman wears her tears like jewelry. ~Author Unknown

*A woman's whole life is a history of the affections. ~Washington Irving

*Love comes when manipulation stops; when you think more about the other person than about his or her reactions to you. When you dare to reveal yourself fully. When you dare to be vulnerable. -Dr. Joyce Brothers

*There is nothing enduring in life for a woman except what she builds in a man's heart.

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And thus, to all men out there, appreciate women for who and what they are. They should be understood and be listened by you. They deserve to be respected as well as appreciated, for a woman wears her tears like jewelry, and that will always be our weapon, whatever it takes.

And as for me. I admit I do show my emotions clearly and there's nothing horrendous or immature about that as I think by showing them, a man knows that it is one of the obvious "real" weaknesses they see in a woman. And it is a natural thing to cry over a man. It's either they accept it for what it is, or they don't, which they won't give a crap about.

Not Even Worth It

A girlfriend of mine asked me recently on why I never post anything on that certain someone.

Well simple as that, my answer was "Babe, she's not even worth it to be mentioned in my blog, for that matter."

FOR THAT MATTER. Hahahahahahah. please. For goodness sake.WASTING my TIME and ENERGY.

*except for this one, obviously.LOL.*

=)

A loser is meant to be with a loser.

So that equals to TWO losers living here on earth.

*clap clap clap*

any Oscar speech for you? :)

Let it Flow : Toni Braxton

First thing Monday morning
I'm gonna pack my tears away
Got no cause to look back
I'm lookin' for me a better day
You see the thing 'bout love
Is that it's not enough
If the only thing it brings you is pain
There comes a time when we could all make a
change

Just let go
And let it flow, let it flow, let it flow
Everything's gonna work out right, Y'know
Let go, and let it flow, let it flow, let it flow
Just let it go

Don't nobody want no broke heart
And don't nobody want no two time losers
Ain't nobody gonna love you like you are
If you take whatever he brings your way
You see the thing of it
Is we deserve respect
But we can't demand respect without change
There comes a time when we must go our own way

Just let go
And let it flow, let it flow, let it flow
Everything's gonna work out right, Y'know
Let go, and let it flow, let it flow, let it flow
Just let it go

Sometimes love it can work out right
Sometimes you'll never know
But if it brings only pain in your life
Dont be afraid to let it go

press the stress

Exam mode. Will be back soon.

Let's Go Baby

Off we go to the Greek island?

Frontin'

Quite a happy night last night. heheh. And dammit those girlfriends of mine embarrassed me like hell. Gonna get you people soon. heh.

Well. One can just wish and wish. Aish.

;)

Please

I need some excitement in life.
Sigh =S
And I wanna shop like crazy at Cotton On
but now dah ada at One Utama, I'm sure there will be so many of em wearing the same kind
Haiyo.
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Exam's like 6 days time
As usual I am on the procrastinator's side
haha.
Insyallah I wanna finish up my notes on Criminal and Land a.s.a.p!
Then concentrate on past years.
Okay this might sound really really random
But I love it when a guy looks you straight in the eyes, the kinda guy who notices even the smallest littlest things about you.
Somewhat mysterious. uuuuu. hehe. i want ;p

Happy Birthday!

Happy 21st Birthday dearest Safwah Balqis, love you always always. <3

Girlfriends

First and foremost, I wanna wish my girlfriend, Okky Pradita Arsanti a Happy 22nd Birthday!! Her birthday was on the 22nd of October, 2 days back. Went for her birthday dinner last night at Michaelangelo's in Solaris. Just the 5 of us, simple yet as usual, fun =). It's been a while we haven't had a proper hanging-out session, and it was all goooood. The food was yummy, and mind you, pictures were taken like there are no other camwhores in the whole wide world man. hahaha ;p. non-stop snap to the snap!

Anyways,had a little tiramisu cake for her and she was all giddy after seeing it.heheh comel la kau. Dahla Nisa and I trying so hard to cover up and she kept on asking and asking why we haven't paid the bill yet.Aiyoooo yennadey, pandai2 laaa agak! =p Went to Ttdi Plaza for a quick stop of dancing. Was not bad la the place, but the crowd wasn't that tantalizing. hahaha. Even if it was for a while, suffice to say I had quite a blast dancing with em. It's been a while laaa girlfriends! After finals, let's let's ;)

I'm glad that things are back to normal with Hayati and Okky. At least takdalah rasa too awkward whenever nak hang, and different cliques and all. I love you bitches so much, and no one can replace you babes, for that matter. ;) Long live the ttdians! heh. Now this is what I call a good distraction for MYSELF and STUDIES! (only till tomorrow, after Aqish's birthday dinner, then I gotta read,read,read and oh READ.)

Girlfriends. They never fail to make you go wild and happy.(: xoxo

Shoot Me

It ain't easy being easy.

Open Your Heart

Open Your Heart
By Mastin Kipp

Open your heart
To Love
To life
To living in the moment
By allowing what is to be
And what you know to be true
To come forth
Hold the space of Trust
In the best and
The worst circumstances
The circumstances and happenings of your life
Are a great Divine recipe for your Soul's perfection
Do not judge any of it
Accept it, go with it
And change what you want
By changing your thoughts about
How you interpret the comings and goings
See it all as being for you
Even what you think is the worst
A time will come, when you will finally see
The contents of this moment as the biggest
Gift
The greatest act of
Grace
Open your heart
Trust each moment, see it's perfection
And dive into the intoxicating bliss
Of trusting Love through
ALL OF IT

indeed it is. =)

Sweet Tangerine

Love this look from LC :)
Simple yet elegant