Funny how my thoughts are scattered all over my mind and yet,literally speaking,seems kinda hard to let it all out.i have countless of wishes to wish for,hopes to hope for,dreams to dream of,and the list goes on and on and on.at this exact moment,i have no idea why i keep on thinking of things that i am not supposed to even think or to even bother.and i keep on wondering why does the heart and the mind are totally two different things altogether and somehow it can't be connected at all. the mind tells you this, but the heart tells you that.the mind controls what you think,what you do, and the heart tells you directly on how and what you feel.your instincts,your guts,your beliefs,all those that are real and true.obviously i can't neglect both.
but lately,the heart is doing its job by telling me that behind all the smiles,the happy face,something is missing somewhere.and it can't seem to tell what it is but yeah.it gives you the feeling of numbness and at the same time you feel like shaking it off and to never let it come back.
okay.back to reality.what was stated above seemed like i was on cloud nine or something.so high that i think too much until i blurted out random things that i don't even know what i wrote.haha.dang.another random thing,i am glad and thankful that i have a few (a few would be sufficient,who would want that many?) people in my life,mainly very very very good friends of mine,besides family that is, that i consider as friends for keeps.including a certain someone who has been there for me through, you name it,the rockiest journey to the happiest moment in my life, and that certain someone has put up with my shits and everything too.Now that's what I call a friend for keeps.it's really hard to find someone,especially the ones who would listen to even the lamest,stupidest rants to the disastrous emotional dramas.but that someone certainly was there for me.and i thank you for that.so much.i never thought that up to the point where i just know i can't even turn to anyone else,not even myself.but you were there when i needed you.you kinda made me fall back to my own two feet and to let me realize that there's more to life than the pointless drama i was going through,of all the past months and shits.
Seriously speaking, you are just truly someone that I know I can rely on,in whatever the circumstances may be. :)