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I've had enough of people asking me whether I'm totally okay by now, cause it has been like, what, half a year already? So what? So what if I did admit that those past few months was hell and a wreck to me? So what if I had gone through the shittiest moments ever in my life whereby the fact that the one I used to love left me? So what if I wasn't strong at times before and all I could do was to just tell people to shut their bloody mouths and stop asking me about all that? People think differently and act differently to many situations in life, be it the freakin sucky ones or the good ones. The fact that my life was all shitty back then, it did not mean that I could not pick myself up and and breathe again. Breathe for something new and something that I have not discovered yet before.

Well these few months have been quite a journey to me emotionally and mentally, for the better I guess. I've stopped thinking about all the unnecessary things I'm not supposed to think of, I let myself distracted by doing all kinda things that kept my mind busy and carefree. My mind is finally beginning to let itself wonder into many positive thoughts. I don't give a crap about what had happened, how it happened,why it happened, because I know for the fact that shit happens for a reason and f*** it if it's a cliche cause that's the real deal pun. No one knows me better than I do,obviously, so now I am clarifying it to myself and to others (the ones who care about me) that I have finally come out from a shell that I was locked it for quite a while, breaking down emotionally and constantly asking myself the "why" questions. Allah never fails to let all is Hamba be equal on all things in life, and Insyallah, He'll guide me through my own journey of life.

No one is yet to discover the true meaning of life. That's for sure. No one is able to know the ending of one's story of life.Never right? I don't believe in the word "fate" for now. But I believe that when an opportunity comes in loving someone coincidentally, like, it just happens right there and then, Insyallah, with Allah's will, it will turn out to be something spectacular,maybe. Insyallah. At the end of the day, He knows best. I am beginning to accept the fact that when someone is hurt by love, the only solution for it to be healed is to look forward and never look back on the flaws that you have done, and to constantly remind yourself that everything happens for a reason. And that He will always, ALWAYS listen to you if you remember Him, at all times.

I know for sure that there'll be a light in every dark tunnel, and I know for sure that I deserve to be LOVED,RESPECTED and HAPPY, most importantly.