Sialan

I think there's no use pun for me to be okay with him


5 good reasons why :

1) Torn my heart into pieces when he fucked things up in the past

2) He has changed tremendously

3) He's with someone I've never ever liked since school. Woops to that.

4) There will always be that "awkward" moment (always,always)

5) Not the time yet. YES. VERY VERY TRUE.


And so, why did I even bother in making the effort to be okay during the first day of Raya last year?
Geez, I don't know. Thought I was making the right decision, but hell no man. BIG, BIG mistake.

And since he doesn't even bother trying being "friends", what's the point? The only real conversation I could talk about was of my late uncle as they knew each other before. Guess that's the only "real" conversation. So yeah I have come to a conclusion that yeap, it is so not the time yet, and I don't give a fuck anymore la if I ter-hang out ke, ter-serempak ke or whatever shit, nak tegur or tak nak tegur. The least that I could think about as I've already made the effort in trying to be okay.And again, big mistake.

Lawak siaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaal. hahah.